Shark in the Water

Sometimes I really love it when a someone is able to completely synthesize your feelings. How? Beyond me. If I don't draw the lines between things, how is anyone else able to do it. But hey, people surprise you.

So whenever anyone brings up their willingness to graduate tomorrow, I cringe inside and tense up at the thought. Because really, what could get better than life right now? You study for three hours tops a week (get real, you don't actually study even as close to as much as your tell that acquaintance in your genetics class). You spend Thursday through Monday trying to just find a way to not have to pretend to do work. School is always a legit excuse to not work and pay your own "bills." And all your friends are around you 24/7 waiting to fill their Thursday-Monday void as well.

But when people ask if I would go to grad school, I tend to cringe just as much. Let's get real, college at whatever level is completely selfish. I would never go because I feel there is so much out there for me to do that I am more than capable and willing to do now with just a undergrad degree on my belt. I don't need to blow off more time in a university setting. I want to help people. Let me help people. Have you seen the discrepancy?

I warned you already, I contradict myself. Really, I should be ready to graduate as soon as possible so I can try and achieve my verbose ideas of worldly service and aid. I mean, I have a pretty sweet deal set up. I get to do just that AND I don't need a job right out of college. Thank goodness for said friend. Graduation isn't getting any farther away, however I am more willing to address it now. Bring it on; If all I want to do is help the world I am not going to do it in my crappy student apartment cleaning some streets once a month. I'm tryna plant a rainforest.